The View From the Back of The Police Car...

This Saturday night started off much like another Saturday night, other than the fact that I was arrested for pissing in public!

52.50 is what I have to pay on Thursday night!... Ha, wtf.

Never pissing again ....

Roadtrip....

i can't wait, a Road trip... away from Buffalo for a little bit!

Be back sunday.

Day 6: Headaches increase!

Today is the 6th day of my headache watch, they now have less intensity. However, that is till my stats exam. All I want to do is wake up and notice that my headaches are gone.

No motivation today to do anything what so ever!
One chapter to read and I am done, please tell me to do it!

My weakness seems to be headaches!

~the man in a straw hat~

Brockport: Team Cheap shots

Rugby is the most inense sport known to man. Generally it is know as a Barbaric sport played by gentlemen. However, they must have not gotten word of that in Brockport.

The game was played in a field farther away than I at first thought which totally sucks, because there were very little spectators. Different from my sophomore year were we played across from the football field at the homecoming game.

This year we were suck in a mud pit at the farthest part from that campus. Then there was kick off, then there was four prospered tries, then finally with three mins left we scored. Yea, we scored Xavier and I both placed the ball down across the line. Unfortunately that was as close as we would get the rest of the game.

The second half started a with the vage, drpping the kickoff, which would lead to another Brockport score. However, The bug went down with a broken leg. The next play was a kickoff, then another broken leg, this time it was rollie pollie. Then another Brockport try. The some solid back and forth Rugby for the first time all day. It was then on a broken play I came across the gain line and made a stick, while getting up I was punched in the temple.

I was out cold for a few mins, then the trainer was over top of me, and asked what i had for breakfast:
I responed with my favorite line, that i don't eat!

We called the game, walked off the field and headed to the bus. went home.

I still feel headaches .... still dizzy, and if i get another chance to hit that kid i will drop him.

-cheers

The Darkening Walk

It seems that the walls are closing in, the hallway seems to he growing darker, and there is no end in sight. I wonder how long it can go on? How long can I mask the pain before I crumble before God himself? I can tell that people are noticing a change in me. I can tell that because they are getting fed up; well to be honest so am I, they are starting to lash out.

Its money, its school, its a relationship, its friends, its work, and its rugby! All at once with no end in sight. I want to do so much, while I am constricted by almost everything. I want to go out with my girlfriend, and then I have to work, or I have to travel to an away game six hours away.
It sucks so much that I have to choose which event to let down.

I want to go to a wedding with my girlfriend at the end of October, however its the last game of the year and I don't know if I will be eligible for another season. On top of that I am captain of the team. So- then I am left to decide who I need let down the girlfriend or my team. If I choose to play, I may single handedly cause my relationship to crumble and have her go with an Ex or whatever. Then on top of that if I go I have to take two days off from work and spend way more than what I would make that week. It seems to be an endless cycle of hurting or letting down. I hate to let people down especially my GF and my friends.

The famous words from a man in a straw hat

Getting serious ... (again)

Every year it seems that i am always trying to get dit together. I am trying to figure out this year is going to be different, but just by looking in a mirror I know that its really different. I find my self making list about what i have to do, writing things down in my journal(including homework) It should be my senior year- but not i am still just a junior. On the road to graduation i hope.

There is only a year left till Amy and I move out of here, thank god i am kinda getting sick of the best htat buffalo has to offer. I still work a dead end job or two, still eat at the same diner, still dream of moving far away and becoming a international Rugby player. Then I think about leaving and it makes me tear, not really of sadness of extream joy. I hope to be sobbing in like a year or so.

Getting Serious About Leaving...

Today I began my search for out of state schools. Oh wow! I am slowly finding out that my time in Buffalo is ending and i am getting excited. Ame is starting to focus on applying for Jobs in out of state schools. She still wants me to go with her, still wants to have a future with me. I love it.

I can't wait.

~The Man in the Straw Hat